Its been a long time
Since i've wrote on Love
I was never down on Love
And then she came along
Held on to everything mine
Took away every detail
That were my past
And tells me back hers
Words seem to be lost
When shes around
I struggle to speak out
Anything in my mind
I confessed finally
My love for her
I write for the first time
This song of Love
I'm so happy now
For I've lost control
I dont worry anymore
For my hold slipped away
Ever have I written
Wanting Love
Ever have these words been lost
Seeking Love
Now when shes around
Its like I'm asleep
In her arms gently
She ... In my arms
I love You
Om Tat Sat
Where is heaven and hell
Where are the Gods I so much pray to
What for do we follow these rituals and rites
In word and deed leaving aside the spirit of love
I see Him now in the babe born in sewers
I see Him now begging for food
I see You sleeping lazily
I see Your hand in the hatred of men
I see Thy grace in the bullet that kills
I feel the impact of the terror You spread
I face Your greed in the scams and loot
It hurts to know the rape of innocense
Oh Lord how can I stop You?
You who witness every act that hurts
You who carry out these actions of 'sin'
You who started this maze called life
You who acted Your part to live
You who still act as though You forgot
You who love for thats Your name
So where is this place called heaven
Opposed from hell
Somewhere people dream to be or not to be
I see now Your play to act both roles
In the here and now you've hid these worlds
I seek Thee to see this world
In the context of Love
I pray for courage to bring Thy Love
I hold my thoughts and for Thine
Words that push these arms to help
How can I see yOu within all this hate?
How do You silently 'witness' these acts of 'fate'
Is there a solution to all these pains
Do You exist or is it our bane
We pray to Thee Oh nameless One
Do You hear these words or are they just noise?
I wait...
Om Tat Sat
Much has been done
Which deserves to be forgotten
Much has been said
Which must be pursued
Much is beyond me
That I cannot do
Do I want to do everything
I think in vain..
Half way through in all these thoughts
Questions I seek without direction to solve
When shall I realize that timeless Truth
That all solutions lie within You
I seek Thee doubts flooding the mind
I pray to Thee without surrendering my pride
Show me the way holding my hands
I seem to be scared of this responsibility to live
I wait..
Om Tat Sat
Days pass on into nights
Summer into rains
Happiness into sorrow
And God decides to sleep
Can you be awake Oh Lord
All the time to this world
Or do You alternate as well
Between Light and Dark?
What should I seek Oh Lord
Thee who I believe regins supreme
Or a life that breeds and lives
To deteriorate into lust and greed
Seeking You also seems to lure
Thoughts of power and control
For Thee I see in imperfect ways
Coloured by my ignorant needs
Then I define You in terms
That takes eons to understand
And wrap You up in stories
Passed on from Mother to Daughter and Son
Yet I have not overcome this question
Do You ever sleep at all
Or into eternity You are awake
To mans meandering ways in Lust
Thee I seek Oh Lord
To light my path ahead
I drop this sense of pride
And stand naked for Your grace
I allow for time to speak
Your words whispered in the mind
To choose actions and words
That scream of Love for the world
May Thy hand grace this fool
May Thy Love rain my tarried soul
May thoughts that wander from Thee
Be blessed and held back to Thee
Oh Lord Show me Thy path
Om Tat Sat
There is a quest for power
A force that disappeared
From visible sphere
That began this journey
Through space and time
This power dark and formidable
I suppressed him the dark one
For he taught me pain
In the face of love
Then I sought him for long
To gain his might..
Words of hate and force
Spilled on space
Trapped in time I hid them
Memory though functions within
And desire once again sprouts
To set him free
Demons in my head sprang and thrived
Feelings so dark kept awake my nights
So confident was I of my path
That God I had questioned not
He seemed to watch and smile
For I was one but in a million in quest
Seeds of love where within my heart
That which silently rooted deeper
Into the void they went for Him
And buds of light emerged bright
He manifested as paths and words
From the outside bombarding my senses and mind
Long have I read and cried
His books and men who guided His kin
Saturated I feel I should slow down
For my within beckons I see inside
Lo and behold appears those thoughts
I seemingly lost as they hid inside
This vast void with its deep caves
Hosted them forces that dormant lay
Arise they my friends of yore
Blood they seek in my quest for Love
My brethern I need to speak the path
And show them the way of the silent God
Silence speaks within my void
And fills her with Love infinite and kind
Ye demons, you are but my thoughts
Rise in me you did and subside you shall within
Come Love show us the way
The mind whispers continously from dawn to dusk. What is this mind, I question. A tool ... A tool just like a spanner, a computer or even maybe a vehicle.
Is this a realm I can enter and exit .like a world post mortem I wish to believe. Neural signals or unchannelled energy these thoughts seem to make me feel alive
What this spark of life I call me 'wants' I am not aware, yet I seek something hurling myself on a path I know not. I pray that I am guided by His Invisible hand and I pray that there is a purpose for my intellect says it is a waste without reason to carry on
Oh what a situation to be in. Some say the bird on the branch watching and bird on the branch eating are the functioning in the brain and some say the watching one is Atman and the moving Jiva
What does this have to do with my path I know not yet I carry on scratching my head a bit.
If this moment were all eternity and ther here and now encapsulates time then I the conscious entity am Shiva!!
Somewhere somehow something has gotten into my head for I associate Shiva with power and control.
I seek power and fame outside; ashtada siddhis on the inside;omniscience and omnipotence as my being. If so then I must be God. Tat Vam Asi say you.
Then why am I still who I am wretched and still a seeker?
What is this mind Oh Maha Maya? May You enlighten me
Asato Ma sat gamaya
Tamaso ma jyotir gamaya
Mrityor ma Amritam gamaya
Om Shanthi shanthi shanthihi
