Why did I forget to dream? Still why this lamentation. Klybhyam ma sma gamah Partha. Where from this eunuch like nature?
You need to know where you are going. Why the doubt?
I gave up my dreams. I burnt my dreams in the fire of prayathna-effort. I took whatever I held as thoughts and threw them out of my being.
Why? They were not in tune. Tune to what - Tune to my being. I needed to know emptiness. I needed to know if there was emptiness when I removed all. I needed to know if I would get dissolved if I did not think at all. I needed to know if there was salvation if the mind was stopped.
In the process I somehow did not channelize this unique gift; the ability to dream.
Here now in my vision is Lord Narayana lying down on His serpent Adishesha. His eyes half open as though in a dream. On His feet Sri Lakshmi. Through His navel Brahma emerges and is seated on a lotus.
His right hand touching a Linga. His Divine feet - Grace. The Shanka - Conch and Chakra - Disc on His sides. And on His other hand the Gada - Mace
All the Devas amd Rishis are waiting on around Him in awe.
Oh Krishna! You are a dreamer. You are the Dreamer.
This is Your dream what I call as Reality. I have burnt all my dreams in this vision of You the Divine Eternal Dreamer.
The Devas are Your senses. Adisesha is Your sense organs(Five headed serpent). Wealth and everything in Maya - Sree is at Your feet. You are touching the Linga - ever Aware that You are He.
Your eyes are almost closed as though in a dream. Bramha - The Shrishti Kartha emerges out of Your being as the projector. (Our Upanishads explain Shrishti as projection not creation. Projection as in a dream projected in the Mind. Similarly the Jagat - World is projected in His Consciousness)
You are as though asleep in Your Infinite Ocean of Milk or Your True Nature of Bliss. Oh Lord. You the Eternal Dreamer. 'I' am but You in Your dream.
Tell me now Oh Lord. What is 'my' dream thats not 'Yours'
Why dream? Show me the way. Dreaming is serious business. Teach me to dream ... I wish to realize. Reveal the dreams You dream.
This is my dream. My prayer.
Om Tat Sat
