En Manas - My mind A rumble through thoughts and feeling so sporadic yet sometimes deep. Does one thought lead to the next and does this make me who I am. A diary for my emotions -
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Dancing with Krishna
Holding on to His arms
Pressing His shoulders on mine
Locked in His hold
Forgetting everything else
I indulge in this passion
In His presence I dwell
Thinking only of His breath on mine
Warm and powerful, I lose control
Whirling in His arms
Stepping to the sounds of drums
Arms around Him I lose sense of direction
As the world loses its grip on us
In a lovers embrace I shamefully hold Him
In a world that recognizes lust as Love
I only want for His safety, a babe
His appearance as a babe in my arms, Krishna
Oh what joy, this dance brings
Where thoughts merge into an intense longing
To only feel His presence and nothing else
Where He dominates in His Love and I a mad lover
Will this end I think and there disappears the Love
And in its place a world appears with thoughts
That spills over with greed and want for things
And there I lose His grip to fall with a painful force
Oh Krishna, may I pray for Your embrace again
May I be in Thy presence that even Lovers shy away
As I shamelessly clutch to Your being passionately
As a longing lover would her partner after parting for long
Drunk in the memory of this ecstasy
My senses whirl in longing for Your body
That hold the Lotus of Love in Your arms
And Your lips that smile like blossomed roses
Oh for that kiss of Yours I long O Krishna
That smile of Yours with eyes open wide
Taking control of this mad fool
And making me forget of my greedy wants
Whirl me in Your Love dear Lord,
Oh dreamer, Oh Lover; bewitcher of hearts
May I merge with You as Radha,
May I be married to Your Bliss
Where is Heaven my darling
Where is there a moment in Joy
That does not carry Your thought
That does not hold Your presence in it
Time my Lord seems to me to kill me slowly
But when Your memory overcomes
Time seems to wrap me in its arms
And embraces me into a dance of Joy
As visions of You with Your lovers
appear to soothe my mind
As I undress my mind from its wants
And embrace Your body in Love
Your memory is like the kiss of a Lover
Your arms reaching over my being
Your thoughts making this misery disappear
Oh Krishna Oh Lover Oh Giver of Joy
As I whirl in the delusional Joy
Time seems to stand still
Holding me in Her arms
Like a mother would her babe
Oh Krishna You are Time,
You are Kaala, death Giver
May I die in Your arms Oh Lord
And be born in Your arms
Only to sing and dance forever
Whirling and whirling in Joy
Arms holding each other with Your Lovers
Let there be nothing but Your embrace
Oh Krishna, I long for You
I die for Your presence
Oh Lord, let this end
This misery of Your absence
Oh Keshava, Oh Madhava
May I merge in Your Love
Om Tat Sat